*~Broken Promises~*

Friday, June 10, 2005

[[everything too late now?]]

- everything too late now? *

愛的記憶會像鐵盒一樣生鏽嗎?

i guess i shouldn't have opened that box..
or was it just in time i should to read all those hurtful words all over again..
i know why now. i got all the reasons. but everything in time? too late.
when i had nothing to say, ppl was there for me. but when i had or really needed a listening ear, things are totally opposite.
i dont get life sometimes..
when they always say after u lost it then u'll noe how to cherish it.
but how when u dint even taste the feeling of losing it in the first place?
it's just a matter of time. and the viscious cycle goes on.
whenever they're here. i think i'm sorta cursed.
that year, i wanted to make it to the event with her.
i wanted to prove to them that we'll stand strong and want him to do that too.
but in the end, did we?
i waited for her, i looked forward to it so much but in the end it was just false hope.
i guess that's how people entirely give up on something.
and only come back after all the hatred is over.
is it that way? does it always have to be that way?

discouraged to do anything now.
i know there's not a single chance left. give it up?
no matter what the ending is still the same.
i should have read the signs.
but. careless me got too focussed on some other thing they dint realize and misunderstood me for.
again. everything starts from a simple misunderstanding.
i'm so sick of this whole thing.
sometimes i wanna run away from reality and block all those distractions coming into my direction.
i wanna leave this place forever at this state and not to suffer all these once again.
i need some focus in life to move on.
i think all i need is a new beginning.
but~ there isn't.
i know.. reality sets past everything.
either face it or turn it around and live life again.
but can i?
with the simplest thought i know my true friends will get it straight in their mind.
she wont be able too.

Thought of you at... |8:40 PM|

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