come to think about what has happened in my life this few days.. i'll be at a loss describing it.. non-stop rushing of assignments, falling sick, changes around me, come and go of people.. endless cycle.. i've suddenly come to realize i'm just so restless.. like there has been no aim in life since dunno when.. start to think.. was i lyk this 6months ago? maybe things then were better.. what u only gotta do was to focus.. and believe.. but now someone stole it.. to say its rather hopeless and saddened to think of how things has past just lyk that.. those words that were failed to say.. it all and all.. just slipped away.. sometimes just words can do enormous harm.. sometimes what you say from your heart aint even been to the other person's mind at all.. they find it worthless? or r u the only one trying so hard to clear e mess? sometimes i wished i couldnt hear, couldnt see, couldnt speak.. just let them flow and let none affect me.. but things gotta be the opposite =/

most of the time i find myself wondering what is wrong with everything now.. but reasons are just reasons. they could be answers to your sorrows and of the unspoken, but what can they do to change you? maybe they would only help you to cope with it a little better. but then again, it will make u dwell and dwell over the same old issue like you've never wanted it to end. sometimes i wished for someone to be there, be it a friend or a stranger to understand.. yet there were moments they doubt me.. because they're not in the situation or whaT? i really dont get it.. why cant they try and put themselves to see how i look at the situation.. or why do they always pretend that nothing is wrong or there is nothing we can do about it.. just shows that they have no intentions or feelings towards it already.. saddening isnt it. its lyk only u trying to piece back the whole complicated puzzle again. you yourself, alone. i seriously dont understand.. freaking me out lyk shit. oh i can pretend to be happy and smiley if you want me too, and when i need something from u, things get slumped and everything gets out of hold again, right.?

maybe all they care now is for themselves.. only if it affects them.. or when things gets really unsolved, then they may poke a toe into the issue and come to see how bad it is. before trying to find a way as easy it is to clear the air.

that's what i really think how people can actually think that they're making the situation better, in their way.

guess i've lost my way or maybe i need a new direction in life. the simplest of all to start with.
是不是一切都會有始有終？
there will be an ending to everything?